need help

I'm so sorry. I don't have any experience with this but I wanted to make sure you knoew that someone had read your post and was thinking of you.

Thank you! I just took the depression test on here and it said that I am under the Severe depression. So I think I need to just give up and go see a shink. Before it gets out of controll

that is probably a good idea.

I thought I would check out your posts since you were sweet enough to comment on mine. It's always nice to know you are NOT ALONE. I'm so sorry that it feels that way. Keep your chin up---seeing a therapist would really help and there is absolutely no shame in wanting to get some extra help, especially when you are in a complicated situation. As you have read from my posts I don't know a ton about bipolar and other personality disorders but it does sound like maybe your husband is also feeling so depressed that he can't focus on anyone else's pain but his own--this is frustrating but keep in mind he doesn't mean to seem that way. Or he just doesn't want to believe that you could also be in pain because that makes him upset because he loves you. As you said in your post on my discussion link--he is the love of your life and you have each other even if it doesn't always seem that way. Seeing a therapist is a great idea, maybe for both of you, and they will be able to help you sort out your thoughts. Don't lose hope, things can always turn around and get better.

It would be a great idea to see someone who is unbiest to the situation... I want you to know i'm writing this so you can see your not alone, there are many women with this disease and they too, feel left in the world by themselves...no one to stand up for them..There is hope...I too have Endometriosis...I have had it for 15 yrs.... I have severe stage 4 Endometriosis...I have had 3 surgeries in 3 1/2 years all were emergency surgeries....People never really except that this diease consumes women from the inside out...So, your correct most people do not believe in the disease....They dismiss without a second thought..after 15 long years my family is just now coming on board with the fact that I'm struggling to live (physically and mentally)....I am in the same boat (some days are definitely harder than others)...I am turning 30 in a few months..I too was married but it didn't work out and no children yet....I grew up saying I would have 7 children and the hard reality of the disease is it causes infertillity...(it doesnt' mean you have to stop living)....I can't have children on my own....the only way I can have children is by going to a fertility specialist but my doctor now is not so sure I would have any eggs to use.....I finally broke down this year and came to the conclusion that adpotion would be the best route for me...I completely understand you feel lost and you have to act different around other people...like living 2 seperate lives..One only you know and the other one put on because no one believes the severity of what youre going through....The best way to deal with horrifying disease is meet it head on...don't let it define you...yeah your going to have really cruddy days, maybe weeks, and if you have a sevre case sometimes months on end....try writing your feelings down, you should always let it out..if you have to cry then cry.....I'm no physician but I have experienced this disease for so long it has become my life....I'm actually going to have my OBGYN refer me too this new doctor who does a more invasion surgery but its suppose to be 80% more effective than the treatment i'm on now..Lupron...Lupron is only 20% effective....I still have constant pain on Lupron and also new pains my bones hurt, muscles ache etc..I don't know what part of the country your in but look up...St Louis Post Dispatch and search Dr. Yeung there was a awesome article about this doctor.....Even if you do not live in Missouri I bet if you could contact him he could at least find someone near you who is as knowledgable as he is about this disease.....remember that in life everyone is given obsticals but its what we do to over come them that defines us not the horrible thing we have to deal with.....I have found inner strength that I never knew I had...I would have never knew I had it either if I wasn't faced with this challenge..I'm writing a book and had anoffer to write a newsletter for a big company..I'm going back to school to get a degree....yeah its going to take me longer than the normal person cause I have to drop classes here and there because of my health, but I refuse to let this slow me down...I have to believe in me and you have to believe in yourself.....You have to be strong and educate family and friends make them listen...vitalhealth.com has a great article..."what it means to really have endometriosis" show that to family and friends...the more you show people this is a serious problem the more they listen..if you ever need advice or help finding a decent OBGYN I'll try to do my best to help you....I hope this has helped some

I agree with 'Lostintranslation'...your husband probably does love you but it just hard to love the way you should when your so depressed...just hang in there...where there is a will there is a way....and there is no shame in seeking help

Thank you everyone. I have no insurence so it makes it harder. I am in Michigan. When I lost my dad in 2009 It opened my eyes and I went back to school and got my hight school diployma, i bought a house to get out of the neighborhood that i was stuck in for 4 years. I am better off where i am now but the mentail and phyical pain is always there. My dad was my best friend. we did everything together. He aways wanted us to have children. But I just can not afford anything. My husband sees 3 different shrinks already for all of his problems. So it might help me as well.

Well I finely broke! I called and made an appointment with a shrink but they cant get me in untill january 5th. I also broke down and told my husband that he does not listen to me when i need him the most. He said that we will talk when he gets home from work tonight. But I already know its going to be the same thing again. He will sit here and just keep saying that he knows but he dont know shit.

what would you like ot hear from him? is there anything he could say to make you feel better? is theer anything he could do? a lot of times men try to fix problems that they really can't fix and often when they realize they can't help you they end up frustrated and osmeitmes even come across as angry... i think that is because they don't want to seeyou hurt and they can't do anything. he can't POSSIBLY know what it's liek to be you right now... is there naything he could say that could be right?

I would like to here "I understand" or "I know this is mentitaly fucking you up" or "I do think that you need to talk about it". No he does'nt know what it's like to be me but if he would just listen to me once in awhile then that might help me out sometimes. Just nobody ever wants to listen. It makes it alot harder when I have on one to talk to around here. I have to live everyday with everything bottled up inside and i'm just ready to bust. I know that there are alot of people out there that feel the same way that i do and just sometimes we would like to be herd by our loved ones. I just feel like i'm ging crazy anymore. I know that he does'nt want to see me hurt but it hurts me more when he does'nt listen to me. I get no kind of support from family or friends.